This is one of those times that I have to trust God's timing, because he sees the bigger picture. I do not.
The thing is, He’s enough. All the time. I don’t have to be.
And again, I can't stop here. Ending it here would make a great blog post, but then there's the real honesty--I have to deal with that.
I still feel this blockage. This resistance that comes from me.
I want to be lost in Him, so far gone...so far gone that nothing else will ever do...
I have to take the next step. If I even claim to love Him as much as I do, calling Him "better than life", I have nothing else to do but take that step, as hard and as scary and as challenging as it may be. I remind myself that I will be safe as long as I'm in His will, I just have to get this through to my mind.
My Lord makes my life worth living,
why not tell others?
But then sometimes I look at my short comings and my non-talents and feel so inadequate. How can I go to speak up or draw up these conversations? I don't even deserve what I have--this grace--why am I called to this? If I am? I guess this is putting into play 2 Corinthians 12:9-10....living it. I really hope Christ can overcome and use my weaknesses, because I feel like He's working with a lot of broken pieces, and with someone who often feels like she's drowning in herself because that's so much of her left, instead of Christ.
And again, I can't stop here. Ending it here would make a great blog post, but then there's the real honesty--I have to deal with that.
I still feel this blockage. This resistance that comes from me.
I want to be lost in Him, so far gone...so far gone that nothing else will ever do...
I have to take the next step. If I even claim to love Him as much as I do, calling Him "better than life", I have nothing else to do but take that step, as hard and as scary and as challenging as it may be. I remind myself that I will be safe as long as I'm in His will, I just have to get this through to my mind.
My Lord makes my life worth living,
why not tell others?
But then sometimes I look at my short comings and my non-talents and feel so inadequate. How can I go to speak up or draw up these conversations? I don't even deserve what I have--this grace--why am I called to this? If I am? I guess this is putting into play 2 Corinthians 12:9-10....living it. I really hope Christ can overcome and use my weaknesses, because I feel like He's working with a lot of broken pieces, and with someone who often feels like she's drowning in herself because that's so much of her left, instead of Christ.
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