My solace in this place and time of uneasiness has come in prayer. Prayer, prayer, prayer. I just have had this urge to pray for these people that I know, the people I'm around, and for the next step in some areas in my life. Or maybe all of them.
Because sometimes, you're just plagued, plagued by the world and thoughts and the feeling that you need to do so much more but can't even handle what you're already supposed to be doing. This has been the story of my week. Just get one more thing done today Rachel, stay up, get up, and do it. I swear, I know I'm one of those people that has to feel productive at the end of the day, but this has gotten ridiculous.
The thing is, this happens when I forget to embody the truth--I am set free in Christ and wake up covered in His mercy and His grace every single day (verse reference: the whole Bible....), no matter what I choose to believe each morning.
Sometimes those lies we believe are still at the forefront of our minds though.
This is the time where you have to decided is Jesus is your all--is he?--and if you are actually letting Him fill you up, instead of trying to do it yourself. Your spirit is willing and your flesh is weak. Is that not the truth?
So many times we forget to do that.
I'm still learning what it is to be filled and to dwell in the fact that He's so filling. Go, and rejoice that this kind of salvation is yours.
"Do not lose heart. For outwardly we are wasting away, but inwardly we are being renewed day by day, for these slight and momentary afflictions are preparing for us an eternal weight of glory that is beyond all measure, because we look not at what can be seen, but what cannot be seen, because what can be seen is temporary, but what cannot be seen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-17
"I know, Oh Lord, that your judgments are right, and that in faithfulness you have humbled me.
Let your steadfast love become my comfort according to your promise to your servant.
Let your mercy come to me, that I may live; for your law is my delight."